I am freaking out right now!

Hey everyone, alright, I am having a thousand emotions run through me right now.
I got the call from my Endo today, with test results. There is a cancerous tumor growing where the right thyroid was removed. We are first going to do a biopsy to ensure that we are seeing a malignant tumor.

It is that phone call I knew I was going to get, but didn't actually want to hear.

This is a good thing in the long run, it helps give an answer to all my strange symptoms and illnesses lately. And once balanced out I will be able to work better at getting back to my "healthy feeling" self.

Please pray! I need to keep a positive look on this. I want to feel strong each and everyday, I want to be able to push through what would be the "tough" days and not have any. I am scared and overwhelmed and I do not want to be.

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Permalink Reply by Jen B on September 24, 2008 at 3:22pm: Wow, there's nothing like that feeling you have when you hang up the phone and digest what was said to you on "the call".

I'm a big believer in going through all the emotions as they come so you can get them over with and get back to the business of living in the positive. Get through it Sister, and know that we are here for you as you find out what's happening to you.

I am praying that what you've got isn't a cancer thing. However, either way, now you'll know what is causing the problems and you'll begin to deal. One step at a time. Whatever it is, we're right beside you all the way. Let us know how you are doing, okay?

Love and hugs, Jen B.; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Daryl on September 24, 2008 at 4:13pm: It sounds like you are already on the road to recovery with the recognition that something good will come out of it in the end. Once a treatment plan is in place you will be able to focus on that and the healing which will follow. I'll be keeping you in my prayers!; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by genie on September 24, 2008 at 4:20pm: I'm so sorry to hear about the bad news, Betsy, but I'm sure you must be somewhat relieved to know they finally found out what is wrong with you. No more looks from the docs like you must be crazy! I hope each and every one who doubted you will apologize.

I was once in your situation -- I knew that there was cancer, but the doc was equally sure that there was not. Therefore, when I finally got the results, after months of testing and waiting, I was not at all surprised. But he was shocked, and I give him credit, he did apologize. He's basically a great person, so that was good enough for me.

Hmm, so next step is more treatment, I suppose. Frick. But soon you will be on to getting back to your healthy self, as you said.

Prayers, loving thoughts, good vibes -- all of this is coming your way.; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Glamma karen on September 24, 2008 at 4:34pm: sending out lots of good vibes and healing thoughts.; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Archimedes on September 25, 2008 at 4:21am: Thank you!
It has just been a crazy afternoon, with my body and mind going through every possible emotion. But I feel so very much at peace right now, almost relieved. I know that God is shielding me from the bad, as I am vulnerable right now. Strength is what I pray for.; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Austin from Earth! on September 25, 2008 at 6:28am: Betsy, I'm praying for you dear. I'm sending you lots of love and healing peace!; ▶ Reply to This

Permalink Reply by Goony on September 25, 2008 at 12:53pm: Hi Meryln's Twin! I'm praying for you love. Getting answers as to why we feel bad is sometimes half the battle. Now you can move toward resolving the problem and I'm praying healing is right around the corner for you!

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