Rivendell Needs Help ~ Light the signal fires of Minith Tirith and Gondor

This half-elven is in need of support of the tribes. I have been very ill for about a week. Severe seizures, not my normal kind. My last TEE, an internal echo of my heart, shows a recurring dark area on one of the valves of my heart, I had a previous cancerous encapusulated mitral valved tumor. pic on my page..I'm having severe arrythmias, right now about 170... normally controlled by high doses of Toprol XL (500 mg, when a normal dose is 50, but having tonight to double it to see if it will bring my heartrate down). My feet are purple, may be a blood clot since I've been bedridden, totally sleeping without waking up last weekend and not able to keep balance. My head is bad with pain with some num on left/.

Cards is calling to keep in touch and if meds don't work wh blood thinners and pain kills, will have to go ER, closet one is Kennestone, which I call the Killing Fields. My surgeon at St. Joes is AWOL, onvacation, and too far away as is Emory...pls mr. custer...I dont wanna go...circle the wagons for me...I have an appt tomo sched lst wk. All tests thn..EKG, echo, labs...pls God let me b ok and do it all then. ER always hits me w latex and szs go wild and untreated...pull out the stops, beads, crosses, candles, whatever you got...I need u and I don't normly lite a signal fire...its not in my nature..i'm a nuturer...I've got 40 min left 4them to make a decison...much luvB