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I pray all of the time for my cancer not to return, and I just hope that I am as faithful as you! Did you also do the juicing and special raw diet? I have been a little slack with mine as of late, because it is not always easy to eat that all of the time, especially when traveling.
I have been praying for you each and every day, and it is so good to know that He hears our prayers.
We will be leaving either Saturday or Sunday for the trip, and I know that you are glad to have the anniversry invitations behind you.
Have a wonderful thanksgiving!
Your sister in Christ,
Lana
50 years - that is amazing isn't it? That Thanksgiving is here is amazing too. Time just seems to fly by. Things are okay here. We have alot of traveling coming up in December so that will be stressful. At least we get to see alot of family.
Not to pry, but how did the scans go?
Your sister in Christ
Lana
Yeah, I'm kind of the same way...what are the odds? how is your sister doing? Hope she is having the same results as you. I know I kind of contradict myself, because I do think to myself what if?...especially with this leg thing. But I'm trying not to let it consume me too much, even though on here it's quite easy to get things out. But right now she needs me, and I think there's a little part of me that's afraid of there being something wrong simply for that reason. I'm afraid of not being able to take care of her...she really isn't well at all. I don't like to think of the term "too far gone" but I'm really worried. She sleeps most of the time, and her memory problems are really frightening. Thats how we found out about the brain metastasis. she was having trouble remembering, then the whole left side of her body went numb(still is) Then she got to the point where she would be walking and literally fall over without having the presence of mind to catch herself. I called her doctor and they did an MRI that same day, got the results and started radiation that same day. They said that the brain is the easiest part of the body to radiate, strange huh? She has a CAT scan of her liver and MRI of her brain sheduled this coming Tuesday, then we will get the results on the 3rd of December.
She had the brain diagnosis on September 30th, and at that time her radiation oncologist said that if treatment didn't work, she probably wouldn't live out the year. Then at an appointment last week, her oncologist's nurse told my step-mom that "it's closer than you think" meaning death. But I'm with her on a daily basis and I just don't buy that yet. I mentioned the success that you had with CTCA and she said she still wanted to stay here, that she was happy with the care she was getting...SO FRUSTRATING!!!! She has no idea the time limit that they have put on her, because she thinks it is then a self-fulfilling prophecy, which I'm sure can be very true. But my sister and I are so opposite, I want all the information I can get and she wants as little as possible...she's never even looked at any of her scans...can you believe it? She said that she will consider CTCA when they tell her that there's nothing else they can do, but what if it's too late?
I'm probably not quite as worried as I'm sounding...I just feel a little like I'm putting myself on the back burner because I want the focus to be on my sister right now...but with this pain in my leg I'm just afraid of letting it go. Before my sister was diagnosed I probably would have thought nothing of it and just lived with it...like I said, who gets leg pain and thinks breast cancer?
Yeah, I've thought about getting tested for the gene and I've thought about the pre-emptive surgery, but I just don't know. Right now I'm taking care of my sister, and I have this nagging feeling of guilt like I'm "stealing her thunder" (Yeah, like anyone would want THAT thunder!) Anyway, I have had 3 mammos since she found out a little over 2 years ago. The first one showed a little dense spot, but after a sonogram they assured me it was just a lymph node. But for the past couple of months I've been having pain in my left leg, that I've been seeing a chiropractor for. he did x-rays and said my bones looked good, but I'm learning not to trust x-rays. (mammograms included) At first I thought it was maybe sciatica, but now its becoming a little inflamed and really hurts...anyway the point I'm making is that is how my sister found hers. She had pain in her right leg and put it off until the point where she could hardly walk, she also went to the chiro, and after awhile he referred her to an orthopedic surgeon. she had cortisone shots that didn't really help and finally he did a bone scan. Before she got the results, he offhandedly asked her if she had found any lumps and in fact she had found a breast lump but it wasn't something she could feel all the time, so she was going to give it 6 months and then get it checked. In the meantime her leg got worse and worse and thats when she finally went to the chiro. Anyway, it progressed from there with the ortho surgeon...she ended up having a biopsy and of course it was malignant and she found out about the bone metastasis after her mastectomy. But who has leg pain and thinks breast cancer? Anyway, I have an appointment on Dec. 4th and I'm going to lay it all on the line to my doctor and demand an MRI. I've also had a huge knot in my shoulder that has given me a lot of pain for the past year and a half..he told me that was where all my stress was concentrated, but now with this leg pain I'm not so sure. I just feel guilty like I'm trying to turn this around to myself or something, but I can't ignore this leg pain anymore. I have had true sciatic nerve pain before and this feels different. It's a dull ache that occasionally gets sharper. I also almost compulsively check my breasts and I truly think that I'm just a lumpy person. I don't think I could decipher between my normal self and a lump. Sorry to give you the whole life story...its easy to start typing and just not stop :) Did you just have bone pain, or did you find a lump on your own? I'm really feeling like a major hypochondriac.
Love you, Jen B.
Out of curiosity, did they initially put you on hormone therapy to try to keep you off chemo? They went through all the hormone therapies with my sister telling her that chemo was a last resort so she could have "quality of life" ( I hate that phrase) They worked for awhile, but then we found out that it had metastisized to her liver last year and it's pretty much been downhill from there. Just wondering how they started you out...you mentioned the aggressive chemo. Btw, which cancer treatment center did you go to?
Yes, I have done taxol, aviston, AC, Gemzar, and a few others. I did my 6 1/2 weeks of daily radiation also. After Thanksgiving they are trying a new chemo. I am just trying it all. I feel ok most of the time now, the chemo I am currently taking isn't too harsh. But, I am dreading being sick again. Oh well...whatever it takes...right? My 3 yr old is pulling at me....chat later. Hope you have a great night!
Amy
I hope you are still doing so well. You give me hope.
Thanks for listening, Amy
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