Today I'm going to Los Angeles for a follow-up appointment with my doctor. Well, the appointment is tomorrow, but I'm leaving today, because i live in Kansas. I've been feeling relatively good since I finished radiation on the 27th of February, so I'm hopeful about my next MRI, but there's always this lingering fear of what if the tumor has spread in my brain, or hasn't shrunk? Even when i hear good news, I can't help but wonder about the possibility of bad things happening. Last time I was in L…
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Thanks for writing back and thanks for letting me know about the book: I will definitely read it.
You are an incredibly courageous person indeed! When the medical establishment, one's friends and family, and everybody around tells you that the traditional approach is the only way, it is so scary to go other way around, no matter how right that other approach feels and how much you believe in it. Chemo is a very powerful tool and while it works for some folks, it may not be an option for others for various reasons. It's a very individual and private decision, because of all the side effects involved and other reasons. Yes, it can be tough on one's family and friends when someone chooses another path of healing.
I will be thinking of you during your trip to Calif and I am sending lots of healing and positive energy your way!
...as they said in that movie, "may the force be with you!" - in this instance: "may the HEALING force be with you now and always!!!"
Mary
Just want to say "hi" and let you know that I feel inspired by your blog. Please keep us posted on your journey and your progress in California. I am sending a lot of positive and healing energy your way!
Mary
I mistook zofran for an antidepressant!!!
I take it only before and during temodar, now that makes me nautious and tired for the last 3 days at least (5 days on, 23 days off).
You are lucky to go to cedars Sinai, I have heard nothing but greatness about Dr. Black. Do you like your N.O there?
I belong to Kaiser, so I go to the one on Sunset, my N.O is ok, he follows the protocols of Doctor Cloughessy at UCLA and trained with him, so I feel that I am getting the best possible care, given how little is known; unfortunately I have to deal with his assistant a lot and I rather dislike her!
How many months of temodar do they want you to do?
I hear now the recommendation is to be on it for 2 years...Unless I see encouraging results on my next MRI I don't think I want to do another year but Avastin I could put up with.
I also see a great chinese doctor in Santa monica who prescribes herbs for me that I brew into tea 6 times a week.
And yes I had radiation also prior to the chemo, my
tumor is inoperable (midbrain top of the brain stem).
You can read my story if you feel like it on the brain tumor group.
Nice chatting with you.
By the way I share your fears but try to enjoy the moment and not let them rule me!
I am glad you are doing well, I am doing well also, I have one more round of temodar to go through (one year treatment) and I also do avastin every other week.
My tumor has shrunk a little but is mostly stable and I still have double vision.
I don't take zofran but effexor and I am glad I have been able to lower the dosage slowly but surely.
Did you do chemo and are only on avastin now? (my neuro oncologist said that could be an option for me)
Have you had any side effects from avastin?
It's so good to share info with someone going through a similar journey!
Just wondering how you were doing.
I noticed your quote is in french, are you french?(I am).
Peace,
Laetitia
My name is Laetitia, I too have a brain tumor and am doing temodar right now.
I like this quote and I have to remind myself of it as I also am afraid of tumor not shrinking or worst getting bigger (I have a pylocitic astrocytoma on top of my brain stem, inoperable) :
FEAR = false evidence appearing real
If you feel like it you can read mine and heather's stories on the brain tumor group, as well as sharing yours (it took me a while but I found it therapeutic)
Take good care,
Laetitia
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